christmas eve eve

thats right, the day before the day before christmas! its a pretty good day despite the rainy-ness. i had to work, boo. but we did get to leave an hour early adn i got a good parking spot (none of the warehouse workers had to work today). now im home and dont have to work until tuesday. tara's here but she has stolen the piano. i need to use some of my rare extra time before mom gets home and makes me clean. i havent had time to watch a movie in forever.

oh and one of the most annoying things in the world is when you are speaking to someone and they finish your words for you. there are not one but two people i speak to on a daily basis that try to do that. its very distracting and makes me, who always loses my train of thoughts, get confused. i dont know if it is their impatience with me or that they try to prove they know what im going to say before i get it out or just a bad habit, but it sucks. two otherwise very nice people with whom i'd love to have a conversation if they'd just let me speak!

its the most wonderful time of the year!

im in a good mood today, despite me leaving my coffee on the roof of the car until it fell off and spilled coffee all over the roof and door (which promptly froze), despite the lack of snow, despite me having to work until thursday. i was thinking about it, this is the first time in a long time that i have been able to enjoy the approach of christmas and all the things that go along with it. i mean, i have been busy, but a different kind of busy. before i was in school and esp during college it was just rush rush rush with finals until christmas break. and then it was too late to be of any help. but this year i have been able to help pick out and cut down a christmas tree, i was largely in charge of decorating, we baked cookies (even if they turned out ugly), and i had plenty of time and money with which to buy gifts. its nice having a job and car. and at work, what with all the food and christmas music, i am constantly reminded of what time of year it is. unlike at college when days would pass and i would forget what was going on.

i have been listening to NPR on the way to and from work and its pretty interesting. i got to hear about the different characteristics of plasma, flat panel and hi-definition tvs. not that i will ever have one of those. and yesterday afternoon they were talking about new studies on the drug Celebrex and how it increases chances of heart attack or stroke. then i found an article on cnn that says the same was true of naproxen (Alleve). ive taken that so its more interesting than the other drug. i wonder how exactly they come to the decision that one is 50% more likely to have a heart attack or stroke. do they notice 50% of test patients keeling over suddenly? i wonder if this is true of most drugs, they all seem to cause some kind of very uncomfortable if not life threatening medical condition. anyway. im sure thats all boring so im done for now.

2 degrees

yay for winter. it was 2 degrees when i left home this morning at 7:20. call me crazy but i love when its real cold. too bad this is probably the only time this winter that it will be so cold. the only bad thing about it is we dont already have snow on the ground (that would be kept from melting in this weather) and its too cold to snow.

oh yeah, i have no talent in somehting as easy as baking sugar cookies. ones i tried to make on friday ended up wrinkly and broken or stuck to a non-stick cookie sheet.

my least favorite christmas song is that one 'simply having a wonderful christmas time'. i hate that it is stupid and gets stuck in my head.

cheese balls

i like cheese balls and cheese logs. they are quite good. and there is a pepperoni dip as well.

do you ever have boring dreams that are so similar to reality that when you wake up you cant remember if it really happened or not? that happened to me and i got confused. i dreamed i asked a friend something and then when i wanted to ask in real life i remembered an answer but it wasnt right. cuz i asked again, for real this time. so much for me being clairvoyant.

or have you ever had dreams where you are not just someone other than yourself (and it feels natural) but you are the opposite sex? is it just me? i always wanted to be a boy when i was little- it seemed they always had it so much easier -but really, come on. where do these thoughts come from?

of course there are also those dreams in which i have super powers that are awesome. where i can open portals right in front of me and i can fly and i dont have to worry about broken computers and christmas presents because im fighting for my life and for the entire world. i wish my life was more like those dreams.

this is hard

its more and more inconvenient for me to write in this seeing as my computer's kaput. did people miss that or what? i was expecting an overflow of offers to help me build my photo collection again. maybe not an overflow, but a couple anyway. i guess no one liked my pictures as much as i led myself to believe.

anyway, im writing from work. its either from here or mom's computer. i guess im lucky to have that many options. oh yeah, and the library. some good news is that ive seen some snow flurries! its beginning to look a lot like christmas- or winter. both are good. christmas is too stressful though, so maybe winter is better. lunch is over.

3 in a row

i had a good phone conversation last night. i got a call from someone at wycliffe to tell me about the application process, which is thorough. we talked almost an hour and it encouraged me to be able to hear someone so experienced. i have a rough idea of when i might be getting on with my career. if i get started applying soon and work hard i could be going to grad school for 6 months starting in july and sent off on a 2 year term as soon as next january. this is gonna take a lot of work, we'll see what happens =)

on my lunch break

did i ever mention that my work is great? most weeks someone brings in some kind of food- cake, donuts, cookies. sometimes we have holiday luncheons where everyone brings in something and we take an hour eating and talking. but they decided that everyone would bring in something each day until christmas. today there is cake, pie, chips, crackers and dip. it makes the monotony more tolerable knowing that i can just walk over and get some munchies.

oh, and watch desperate housewives if you havent. i cant garuntee guys will like it, but who knows? i liked sports night, and that seems like a guy/sports type thing. anyway, its kind of a dark comedy/drama. last week's episode was very good. there are several reasons to watch, not the least of which are that dana from sports night is in it (she's much less annoying than in sportsnight) and danny elfman did the music. it might take a couple episodes to get into it but i recommend it.

it happened

my computer blew up. well, at least it did on the inside. now all i get are clicking sounds and 'no harddrive', 'no os found' messages. maybe i overheated it, although i used it just fine a couple hours before. last thing i did was talk to beth about her baby's elbows while email my testimony to a mission im applying at. feel special beth. so anyway, im the stupidest person in the world who deserves what happened.. i lost all my photos. i didnt back them up. i kept saying i was going to one of these days but one of these days didnt come before it crashed. i've been told that its possible to salvage things from my harddrive if i take it to someone special, but just in case i have a favor to ask. if anyone got pics from me while i was on the taylor network could you let me know and maybe we can work out for me to recover some? you can email me or whatever. i still have my peru pictures adn all the ones from central america but most the recent ones of friends from taylor are gone.

needless to say, i will continue not being on the internet often (even though i was planning to get on more before this fiasco.) some good news: ive finally gotten back in touch with wycliffe bible translators, or they got in touch with me. its really exciting and i havent really started the application process yet but its fun to imagine me in the near future doing what i want to do instead of busy paperwork that makes no difference to anyone in the world except the rulers of kitchen supplies.