well, i think this is my blog thing.

martes, agosto 31

waking life and moons

"Things have been tough lately for dreamers. They say dreaming is dead and no one does it anymore. It's not dead, it's just been forgotten, removed from our language. Nobody teaches it, so nobody knows it exists. The dreamer is banished to obscurity. Well, I'm trying to change all that, and I hope you are too.....by dreaming, everyday. Dreaming with our hands and dreaming with our minds. Our planet is facing the greatest problems it's ever faced...ever. So, whatever you do, don't be bored. This is absolutely the most exciting time we could have possibly hoped to be alive, and things are just starting."


thought provoking quote from waking life, i just watched it. i love to hear people talk about life and dreams and the world, you know, if they really know what they're talking about. the wisdom in it. the quote is also kinda cliche sounding about 'dreaming' and being a 'dreamer'. but the part about our world right now is what struck me. 'whatever you do, dont be bored'! how right he is. i have no right to be bored, ever. there is so much to do in life. so many other people. i just need to be motivated, not waste time.

i was driving home tonight and i saw the brightest moon ive seen in a long time. it was beautiful. there were shadows under the trees. i wish i could have just sat there forever, but it was late. i shoudl be more impulsive, follow my instincts.

domingo, agosto 29

idiot kids

i was just reading amanda's blog in which she lets us read some stuff she wrote as a kid. its cool looking at things from my childhood. last year when we moved i got to read through a lot from elementary school and see some pictures i drew and those cute little hand paintings where you see how freakin small you used to be. i just saw something else my mom had lying around. it was this book made of pages that everyone in my 3rd grade class drew for me. its funny that my favorite things back then were almost the same as now.. nintendo anyone? haha. so this one kid had a drawing of me outside. i need to scan this thing so you can witness the hilarity.

some of the words coming out of my mouth in one of those little bubbles are 'I smile food'.

thats all for now.

sábado, agosto 28

sleep in august

sleep... does one ever grow out of this wanting to sleep in as late as one can? i dont get most of the world. i mean, i do understand that in order to make a living and not get fired it might not be an option. but what about saturdays? is sleeping not enjoyable after a certain point in life? i guess its wasted time in a way. i felt that way in college. more time sleeping was less time talking or playing or doing whatever you do. but after 4 years on very little sleep and having no motivation right now, i dont mind sleeping until 10 or so. then there is the other side of the spectrum. people who can sleep for 12 hours a night, many days in a row. i dont get that either. it takes me some mighty willpower to achieve that kind of nonsense. much waking up and forcing myself back asleep. its just not worth it.

it was hot as ever today. i wonder why i was born in the worst month of the year. its the most miserable the most often. the humidity, the heat... i never got birthday pencils at school, never got to have a party and bring cupckes. everyone else did. and then people say 'at least you can have a pool party for your bday'. ha! it sounds good, but watch out. what do you do the rest of the time your arent in the water? swatting all kinds of bees. your ice cream cake all melting. no thanks, i'd rather have a 'snowball fight party'. thank God for a.c. and snow.

another weird thing.. i found a little wasp nest being built in the back back part of my van. ack! as if it wasnt pleasing enough to drive, i get to have little bug friends to sting me and make me crash. i almost freaked out today when this green flying bug fluttered to the front passenger seat. luckily my sis was there to usher it out. oh and when i opened a screen door today some bug flew in my eye. no luck with the bugs.

viernes, agosto 13

im back!

well, im not really that enthusiastic about it. i think i just had the best beach experience i can remember. it was wonderful mostly because of the weather. who's ever heard or south carolina (or anywhere in the east for that matter) not being humid in august? i loved it. i wanted to be outside. i swam. i sat on the balcony of our friends' 8th floor condo =) we had good food many times, and boy does swimming make me hungry.

see?

i got to read a lot too, on the beach and the balcony. and this time it wasnt crappy fiction! it was one book about spiritual disciplines, some politics (gotta get knowlegeable what with the election coming up), and this encyclopedia of n. american wildlife. quite the variety but all interesting. i think it was nice to be away. it was nice to be around my whole family.

i need to write again once i get some more pics downloaded. we visited an awesome aquarium in myrtle beach and i need to share my amazement.

about these politics... at this point i cant say who i'd vote for. i need more info, but even then it will be hard. im not a fan of either candidate but im looking for the lesser evil. come on, bush just seems like a screw up to me. i cant vote for him just because he's a christian. that just seems wrong. like im not giving it enough thought or scrutiny. he oversimplifies the most complex of problems and i think its not entirely honest. thats a bad witness as a christian, a non-thinking person. and then there is super liberal kerry with his scary wife. who knows what he would do to our country. i hardly know a thing about him. it is gonna take a lot of work for me to figure this out for myself. haha. maybe my vote will even 'make a difference'. i was going through my mail and foudn a letter from our senator begging for money and saying that the pa election might turn out to be as close as florida in 2000!! oh joy.

ah. its good to be home. sleepin on my own bed. well, at least last night. now there's company. ive been doing things like playing that nintendo (yay!) and breaking light fixtures. im such a klutz. i thought'd i'd do dad a favor and change some light bulbs but instead i ended up vacuuming glass from our berber carpet while he pried the broken light bulb out of the fixture =( sigh. on a happier note i now own spirited away, a bday gift from my sis. i should watch that again. excellent movie.

i finally put a new pic on my profile but for some reason it isnt showing up at the top of the blog page, it is just when you click on the old one and go to the profile page. maybe someone could help with this...

martes, agosto 3

and another...

i took a quick little jog out to indiana for the weekend. its always fun to drive 10 hours to stay 2 days and then come right back (driving ten more quick hours on one's birthday nonetheless). but i was in good company at least. and i got to go to the best indian restaraunt in indy. so im back, for a day. then we go to south carolina, however far that is, for a family vacation. wow, we'll all be together. that hasnt happened all summer. tara lives away of course, dad's had this business tripfor the whole month of july and mom just got back from idaho.

i forgot to publically thank a friend (you know who you are) for helping me fix my wireless card/my whole ip system. this person is more ingenious over aim than two hours worth of tech support over the phone. so thanks.

and thanks hollandians for your support. its always good to be ranked right up there with sausage, beer and clogs. i'll try not to disappoint you, although this vacation will make it hard for me to 'content more on a day' seeing how i will be gone for a week or so. and if that comment was from one of you in holland, michigan... how disappointing a joke for me. i wouldnt mind an international following =)