well, i think this is my blog thing.

domingo, mayo 30

the boringest blog ever (except the photo)

ah its good to be at home, if only to go to my home church. i missed the people a lot. being 10 hours from school does not promote going to church here very often during the school year.

good news! i might be getting cable or dsl soon. they're leaning towards cable... so much the better. no more waiting 5 min for a page to load only to find that it is frozen and cant be found. no more 'disconnected' right in the middle of an online game. no more mom yelling at me downstairs to 'get off the internet, she wants to check her email'. yay for being addicted to the internet. something is wrong with me.

gross. i just smashed a fly all over greenland. sorry greenland but you have fly guts on you.

so, i feel like showing off my wonderful photography skills. what do you think about this beauty?

goat.

hope you liked it. ah goats. what strange creatures.

sábado, mayo 29

i am overcome

in case you havent noticed the untimely disappearance of my side bar (you know, the attractive group picture and list of posts) you can find it in its new location at ' the bottom of the page '!! thats right. so just in case you were sick of looking at it, its been removed from your sight.
but seriously, i am like a little kid. dont let me play with computers. i thought i could put some nice links on the side with my html skills but i failed. i only made it worse because, as it turns, out i cant program in any form. eventually the links worked but now this happened. so i dont know. enjoy if you can.

we got the blockbuster deal where you can check out 2 movies at a time for 30 dollars for a month. pretty sweet. so i can take them back whenever im done and get more movies. i saw love actually again tonite. first time was in the theater, beth and ashley were there! it was a little awkward this second time with my mom there, cuz of the porn scenes. hehe. but what a warm, fuzzy movie. i think my own love story might be like the portuguese girl and colin firth. seems likely to me.

something i really love is having clean hair at night. this doesnt happen too much cuz my routine is shower in the morning, and unfortunately my hair doesnt stay nice and fresh into the late evening. but those special occasions (or lazy moments) when i take me a shower late, those are the best. i just wanna sleep with my hair down. of course this doesnt include wet, clean hair. that just sucks when you wake up with hair still wet, or all scary shaped.

this time im not gonna try and pretend like my little 'im listening to: blah blah' actually works. as you nkow, my html skills leave much to be desired adn of course i couldnt get this to work either. i just fooled you before by typing it in myself. what a cad. i know and i apologize for my deceit. so now i will just tell you straight: you need to listen to "overcome" by live. i am listening to it and therefore you should too.

also, i dont have any new pics of ipheginea now.

it's either sadness or euphoria

im still a bum. but a happier bum. i really need to get myself up in the mornings so i can be productive with... i dont know what, but something. it is nice to have friends nearby though. i dont know if i would quite call it euphoria, but at least im having some fun. i got to watch the return of the king and have some good food at my friend's house. and i havent seen a cuter dog in a long time.

so my routine each night is pretty much watch movies/whatever until late. then talk on aim to whichever friend might be around. then look at the clock and realize how freakin late it is. then decide that now woudl be a good time to read. read at 3 am?! im either stupid or ingenious. its sad because i have so many things i want to read but i dont take the time to do it. in the school year, i had the excuse that i have too much school reading to take the time for leisure reading. now, im just too lazy to read. thats right. too lazy to sit in a chair and read for hours. whats wrong with me? i also tend to start books and not finish them. luckily these books that i start are books that i have already read. so lets put it all together: im someone who doesnt take time to read what she really wants to read, ends up waiting until late to start, and then only rereads books.

wanna know what books ive started recently? there's... the return of the king (3rd time?), mossflower (2nd time), hitchhikers guide to the galaxy (not technically 2nd time yet but im rereading most of it to get to the part i didtn finish), and ruthless trust (1st time).

i think i'll make one more reference to the post title. this is like my life. one day im so content and happy, next day im a poor, brooding moron. i admit that ive learned the latter type of day normally stems from my selfish reflections on my life and how it coudl be better for me. im ashamed of this, and any of you ever catches me doing this, feel free to stop me and smack me aroudn a little bit. sometimes we all need a little perspective, to be reminded of what we have and where we live and how this is nothign to complain about. i think personally i need to sit and think about life more often. to stop doing things and just think. thats a hard thing for me because my mind is always wandering and worrying. i like to actively, not constructively, waste my time. this you can see from this blog that no one in their right mind should be reading.

buenos noches.

aww. cute.

neat.

miércoles, mayo 26

technology is my toy


so. i havent got much to say except that i feel way too trendy. and that i adore second graders.

they make these things way too easy for idiots to post 'gay-logs' as manda so deftly put it.
my mouse sucks. it is brand new but likes to click all by itself, randomly. so one moment im typing in one window and the next i see that i have finished my sentence in the middle of another, in a different window. grrrrrr.

well, i said i'd post but i didnt say it woudl be interesting.

and now for something completely different.


a girl that i love a lot
(my good friend caellyn)


and this is for manda and jenna
[Listening to: Mad World - Gary Jules - Donnie Darko (3:07)]

maniac

im home. been here for 2 days now, after a weekend full of excitement, tears and sunburn. i dont know how i feel about being a graduate. im sick of all the congratulations (which i dont feel i deserve) and trying to make up a feasible answer to the question "so what are you gonna do now?"

its good to see my family. my mom hasnt called me lazy yet... so i guess this is the life, so far. at least i made myself get up at 9 am, see? im a good daughter. all i've wanted to do is unpack and clean this room of mine. after cleaning like a maniac for a couple days, i still have more to go. at least i can walk through it now.

i have 2 friends here for the moment and i need to make the best of this, because one will be leaving in a couple days and then i will have one. it sure is hard to make really good friends in high school... i hope its better with my friends from college.

well im off to help my mom teach second graders how to count money, something i personally didnt get until i graduated high school and got a cashier job. since one of my good friends told me that these blogs represent all that is uninteresting about a person, i'll try to keep it short ;)

jueves, mayo 20

"it is finished"

took my last final a couple hours ago. i feel nothing great, surprisingly. not satisfied. i feel like im not done yet, but i am. this is it. my liberal arts education is finished.

liberal arts. lets take a few moments to consider what these words mean. as far as it has been described to me, liberal arts is a big mix of all different subjects, including the arts so that the student will be well rounded. as a pretty well rounded student, i excel at nothing. i think this is looked down upon by many here. my major (international studies) is inferior to 'real' majors, such as business, pre-med or education (i love all my el. ed. friends!). but the funny thing is i am the most 'liberal artsy' student you could have because my major is just a conglomeration of other majors: history, geography, politics, religion, economics, and so forth. while it is nice to be well rounded, i feel useless. im just another burden to society. but maybe i will do something worthwhile in this life afterall.

i once ate a whole stick of butter in a matter of minutes. what have you done?

the wait is over... see this magnificent photo of me shoving butter in my face:

miércoles, mayo 19

again

so i was super happy to find that my very own sister (who i was quite sure hated me more than anyone because i dont keep in touch) went through every type of torture to post unanonymously for me =) happy day. and by torture, i mean taking 2 minutes to sign up for a blog that she doesnt have to ever use if she doesnt want to.
what a complainer. but i love her anyway.

my life is going so quickly right now. 2 more days before graduation, 1 more final to do without studying, 2 more boxes to pack. i feel this great need to spend some final time with my different friends but i when it comes down to it i dotn want to get off my lazy butt. its a very strange time. the end of a lot of problems, the beginning of a lot of different problems.

oh yeah! guess who is engaged?!

hmm, i wont wait for an answer. but its... thats right! ashley and paul! congratulations and good luck to both of you. i'll miss you (especially if you live in florida...ack!)

also, i have dust up my nose from moving my junk.

martes, mayo 18

YOU... obey the fist!

im back by popular demand. well maybe cuz one anonymous person demanded it.

i cant believe my life as i know it will be over in a matter of days. cuz on saturday i am graduating from college. maybe this is the last schooling i will ever get. the worst part is im not sure what comes next. getting a degree is great, but what good is it if you dont have any idea of what you want to do?

um, i dont have much to say right now. gotta go tutor, something i enjoy sometimes but not when i have so little time left with my friends.

as a closing note, watch invader zim.

to be continued...

martes, mayo 11

i dont know what i am doing...

am i really this much of a trend follower? i guess so. but i like to think that i only follow good trends, and who wouldnt like to let their friends know how they are from far away?

we'll see how this works. im not known for keeping things like this up to date. i have several unfinished journals that contain approximately 6 entries.

and will anyone actually read this? that depends on if i decide to tell them about it. if anything this could be a way for me to keep track of my thoughts. and i am always on the computer nowadays.