disorganized.

first of all, thank you to those of you who encouraged me. it really did help =) and what im about to say is not me despairing, im just going to unload my latest complications. but dont worry, im praying a lot about it all.

i am the most unorganized person in the world. sometimes it seems like there are too many things in the world for one brain to think about. i am easily distracted and sorta unresponsible. i hate all the bureaucrazy (haha that was a typo but im leaving it) involved in everything we do in the U.S. maybe that's one of the reasons im so eager to leave. on to a more simple life. i seriously cant handle. not to the point where im going to go jump off a bridge, but my mind is spinning. every time i am applying for some school, or program, or job, or whatever there is this long list of things one must get signed, transferred, completed, etc. i remember specifically applying for my semester in costa rica. i walked back and forth across campus to all of the various offices from which i needed approvals. it took weeks and i remember the wonderful sense of relief just to be done with it all. so anyway, the reason for my rant about this...

ive been casually thinking about starting to apply for the GIAL. i was sort of waiting to find out if i would get accepted into Wycliffe. so while i was waiting, i waited right past the registration date for the GRE. we'll see if this is an answer to prayer (and not just a pain in my rear) as an explicitly closed door. when do you let things just be? i think im going to call them and see if i can be an exception in their application process. who knows, if its a small enough school maybe i can do something as an equivalent to the test. otherwise i will be waiting another school year. i need a life planner-thing but if i had one i wouldnt look at it after writing in it.

on a happy note, we had lots of snow today and i left work early. see, where i live and where i work are different altitudes so when it snows casually down at work, it may be snowing a blizzard (and sticking) at my house. i called home to see how it was and found out the roads weren't too good. i told my boss i was leaving and she looked at the window to see no snow on the roads anywhere, and said ok with one of those looks. i felt a little bad until i started driving up the mountain and slipping and sliding all over the road. i think i left right in time. praise God for safe driving.